So every time I go back to California to visit, I experience a phenomenon that I'd like to call "the crunch." Perhaps you are familiar with it:
When you buy your tickets to go back to your homeland, you stare at the little airline purchasing calendar, negotiating between your head, your heart, your schedule in your second home, and your wallet. You remember a time that you went to the motherland for too long, and you started to feel bored, and like you were intruding on everyone's workdays. You remember a time when you went to the motherland for too short of a trip, and everything was rushed and tiring. You try to choose an amount of time that's somewhere in between.
But as soon as you make the purchase and announce your visit to your friends and family, the crunch begins. Suddenly, you realize that you could easily spend the entire trip with each person who gets in touch with you and says they want to see you. You try to map out an itinerary that fits everyone in, but people are in different cities, people have kids and jobs, you don't have a car, and you want to spend as much quality time with your dear grandmother as you can! Crunch goes your schedule. Crunch goes your wallet. Crunch goes your heart. The guilt can really weigh on you!
You know it's ridiculous, but you actually start to feel sorry for yourself because you have so many awesome people in your life and not enough time to spend with all of them.
Has anyone else experienced the crunch? Is anyone else experiencing it right now, like I am, while trying to plan their trip home for the holidays?
I'm so happy to be going back to the US for a visit, but I'm feeling really, really guilty about not being able to spend more time with everyone.